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I choked up at your parents doing the crossword before they went to sleep. I’m even teary writing this. Such a simple beautiful last moment, it truly is the small moments that make this world.

December is a hard one for me, I’m from a fractured family. My mum twice divorced and a family on either said of the Irish Sea. Not to mention family feuds. I try every year to carve out a Christmas I like but it is always sad as I’ll not have all my family together.

We are big believers in the robins that come and visit. Along side rainbows 🌈, herons and feathers 🪶 Oh and those little fairy ball things that float.

I’m too drawn to the sea in grief or times of emotional stress 🌊 The sound and the looking into the horizon gives such a sense of calm.

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It was such a beautiful last moment, I couldn't have wished for it any other way. Christmas casts such a spotlight on families - what is missing, what can't be, as well as the coming together where we can. It's definitely a mixed bag. But yes, I love our little messengers, as well as the timelessness of the sea, it's there that I feel we are still so connected x

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That’s it, when the ones left behind feel a peace knowing the last moments were the best they could have hoped for is so healing. I think we search for these pieces of information when someone passes, my grandma sadly passed not so peacefully but it brings me peace knowing that she’s now with her lifelong love after missing him so dearly for years.

That’s it, Christmas highlights both the good and the what could be better.

Sending lots of love and happiness on the lead up to Christmas. And if it all gets to much, I hope you sneak in trips to gaze at the sea and bring yourself back. 🩵

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And the same to you my friend. It's been wonderful to connect with you on here. I wish you a peaceful and happy Christmas ❤️

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Sentiments very much shared, it’s a pleasure to get to know you and connect on here. The merriest of Christmases and happiest of new years 💚

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❤️❤️❤️

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There was a time when my birthday felt really weird, poised between dad’s ‘death day’ and Brian’s birthday, it seemed odd to celebrate in amongst all the gloom. Then I just decided to change my mindset. None of the dates was ever going to change, but I could look at it differently and allow myself to be happy. Now I reflect on the lovely things about them on the 3rd and 10th, they surround me like an embrace. More what I had, than what I have lost. It doesn’t make me negatively spiral any more. It’s calm and quiet, I like it, and there are always the robins. Beautiful words, thank you xx

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Em & Bren : lovely sentiments from both of you which really help me to keep finding my own way through the loneliness of missing the two

men of my life - I have a robin who comes to my birdfeeder every day (despite my cat being on the hunt occasionally - he is getting old and sleeps a lot!) and the robin always reminds me of Dad who used to love his robin visiting! I am so lucky to have lovely family around me still.

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Big hugs and appreciate this share. One year ago yesterday, I got the call that my dad was bleeding out ... He passed on Christmas Eve last year. It's a weird time. And this posts reminds me that it might always be a weird time of year but also that it will keep shifting in different ways.

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I love all these beautiful memories that you have shared, it's definitely a reflective time for many reasons isn't it? I also know it's my dad popping in to say hello when I see a robin. A couple of years ago when I wasn't feeling great, one stayed in our garden for longer than it felt normal too. I would see it every morning on the top of the gate or on the table or in a tree. It's a very special thing to now they are looking out for you. x

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Reading this is making me want to go visit my dad’s grave, I haven’t been for a couple of years. I ask him for messages and signs when I visit and I always get one. Usually comes through in his humour and makes me laugh. Luckily it doesn’t affect Christmas too much for me (we didn’t celebrate it when I was a kid) but I understand it’s such a difficult time for so many including my friend who’s dad died on Boxing Day and those who have lost children (at any age). Beautiful read, thank you🥲

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